This week has been odd, so my word is lost. But then I found this note-book and it made perfect sense to me, I am lost in the right direction! Everything in life is changing, no one is ill thank goodness. But life as I know it will never be the same. It’s hard because I don’t know what I can or can’t write about it at the moment. Part of me feels sad to the core, let down and angry. And then I look at myself and think grrr get a grip people are in much worse situations than me, in fact my situation is not bad, not really, the change is long overdue. Sometimes you need a little encouragement to change what doesn’t work for you any longer. So like it or not changes are happening, and in the end I know it is ultimately best for my family and I.
Being an impulsive person when I know changes are happening I just want to get on with it. But I can’t, and that is the absolute worst of it. So I will sit, watch and make notes, I will add them to the reams of notes I already have. And hopefully I will have a few tales to tell when I come out the other end.
But with change comes excitement too, I know this is right and I know I will look back in years to come and say thank god that happened.
What has made me happy this week?
The amazing London Bridge Challenge with Diabetes UK, yes it was hard but I loved every minute of the day, and the walk really did me good, cleared my head, apart from the part where I nearly threw Joe off bridge no 7 for moaning about his alleged sore leg. He managed to run when he saw an ice cream van so enough said.
Spending time with my Mum, Dad and Brother, there is nothing like being around family when you are feeling a bit meh and it was lovely.
Visiting my beautiful Nan, she is in a home now and sometimes looses her memory but we caught her on a good day and had a lovely time chatting and laughing with her. She thinks she is on holiday, which is lovely as my Nan always loved a holiday. It must be where I get it from; in fact I am sure it is.
Chris is making great progress with my desk, it seems I am more the project director as it has been completely taken over by Chris, how can you get sacked from your own project! But it is looking good, and I know he is doing it so I have a lovely desk to work from sooner rather than later.
My beautiful new camera arrived this week, I haven’t had much opportunity to play with it but I am so excited to learn to use it and hopefully improve my photography.
Dark nights, I know most people hate this but I love how cosy nights feel when it gets dark earlier.
This week I am looking forward to testing that camera out, and making it through to half term. We have a very exciting lodge break booked with Q Lodges, and time to chill as a family. It will be a well needed break.
And Jack will be 15 arghh how did that happen, my first born is 15. He is quite chilled about it, not bothered for a fuss. He does not get that from me, and the worst of it is I will be working till 9.30 on his birthday. I know how rubbish, but we will make up for it on the weekend at Q Lodges.