My word of the week this week has been tough, its been an odd week so I want to use change, but I have used that for a couple of times lately so feel it’s not enough. I am so very happy in my life but feel like I have an element of uncertainty in it at the moment, and I just don’t know how to deal with it. I know what I want to do, but I need a long-term plan, an outcome, and there you have it, I need a crystal ball. So for my weekly round-up I decided to do a little self-evaluation.
I have always been a driven, measured person. Known what I am doing and where I am going, and at the moment I feel in limbo, just not sure what to do for the best. But one thing is for sure when I am sat at 85 in my rocking chair I do not want to look back and think, “I should have taken that risk.”
But what is a risk? My family and friends are happy and healthy we have a great life, I feel so lucky, so anything around that is not as important is it?
But all the time I think about change, I am trying to change other elements of my life this week I tried to change my blog, I was lucky enough that I have some wonderful honest friends who told me no, step away from the blog. I have decided to re decorate the lounge before Christmas, ordered a new sofa, brought new clothes, today I am looking a new hair colours. As soon as I did that I realised, I have a life itch. I only change my hair colour when I am restless. I have been running around trying to change all the things I can control grr.
The only problem with life itches is sometimes you need patience. Knee jerk reactions don’t always help. In a way other people are in control of my destiny at the moment and I need all those people to stop procrastinating and make a decision, then I can make mine. But until then god only knows what I will look like next time you see at the rate I keep changing, my hair could be blue.
Just so you don’t think I am all doom and gloom ha ha, here is what made me happy this week.
My very first ski lesson with Chris and Joe ( Jack was of skiing on his own) more to come on this but I loved skiing.
Finally finishing Joe’s homework, he gets so much and hates doing but we worked together and got through it. And I let him use my desk!
Meeting up with my lovely friends Louise and Janine, and beautiful god-daughter Suzie and eventually meeting the very cute baby Joey.
Planning our half term Q Lodge Visit. All very exciting.
Planning our new lounge and choosing furnishings, I cant wait to get it finished, although we have to start first.
Sometimes writing it down makes you better, and yes, getting it off my chest has made me feel much more positive. All I need to do is chill and wait. Rome was not built in a day.
And this week in the quest for organisation and healthy eating I have been trying to take my lunch to work, and am loving the versatility of my beautiful Monbento bento box I have seriously fallen in love with this range and am slowly building up a stylish little collection.
The MB Original is perfect for taking to work as I can enjoy healthy hot meals at work as the MB classic is microwave safe. It also has a compartment for fruit so stops me nipping to the canteen and buying unhealthy meals.
Life itch is a very good way of describing that feeling and hope you manage to find a way forward and ease that itch very soon. I wonder what colours your hair will go through in the meantime! Glad that you’ve enjoyed some happy moments too and that first ski lesson sounds like fun 🙂
Ha ha yes I will need to stay away from the hair colours, yes it has been a great week I just woke up this morning and it was all going around my head so I wrote it down, x
We are very similar. I also get the “itch.” Hubby says he sees a certain glimmer inmy eye and he knows things are about to change. I have been feeling it a lot with the change of seasons lately and have since coloured my hair ( blonde to brunette), changed the furniture around in the family room, booked three sets of theatre tickets for the Christmas season and book plane tickets and AirBnBs for 2 trips Things can’t stay status quo sometimes. You gotta move on for your own sanity…
Ha ha we are so the same you are right, and yes Bronwyn sometimes those changes have just got to happen x
Aw Sarah sounds as if you have something going on at the moment, and whatever it is I hope it turns out for the best (which I am sure it will). Your hair will always be fantastic whatever colour it will be. Hugs x
Ah thank you Tracey, I am sure it will I just need a little time to organise and wait for others to organise themselves around me x
I found myself saying here, here to your post. In particular with the feeling of being in limbo. I love to be in control and am worried about risk. As a way of coping I’ve been changing things around the house. Thanks for sharing. #wotw
Thanks Helena its so funny how psychologically we try to control other things when we feel out of control of a situation x
Sometimes it’s the thinking of doing it that’s the hardest. Too many ifs and buts. I hope you sort out whatever is itching you and that you can move forward for the best. You deserve it you lovely lady. I’m sure you’ll figure it out. Jess xx
Thanks Jess I think a little time and it will all become clearer or at least I hope so ha ha, x
Oh, I get like this, so I know just how you’re feeling. If I don’t have a project on the horizon (and this very thing is looming now) I get frustrated and start looking at bigger things, too. I like change, it keeps me buzzing and happy, so I am often looking for it. I am liking the hair change, think I’ll work on that first..! I hope Rome starts getting built soon for you x Thanks for sharing with #WotW
So right Joselyn, I feel I always need something to keep my mind occupied x
Ha ha love it. Yep, I can totally relate to get life itches. Changing everything you can control and still look for more. I do it constantly. My mum worries that I’ll burn myself out but it’s my nature to keep doing. I don’t often sit still. I hate the feeling I get of unsettled times ahead but love it when it all makes sense. It’s all going to turn around again for you hun and in a good way. You’ve had so much go on esp on the blog. Love you. Love your blog and yes don’t fix what ain’t broken. Your blog is beautiful. Xxxx
Ah Kat I love you you are such an amazing friend and support from wonderful people like you is priceless, things are starting to become a little clearer thank goodness xx
Firstly, I love your phrase – a life Itch. So very apt for everything you’ve described. You’re right about being in limbo, it’s an awful place to be and I can totally relate to your feeling restless. However, waiting for others to make decisions so you can move on is also one of the most frustrating things; not being able to change things that you don’t have control over is hard. But it sounds like you have plans, you have ideas and you know where you want to go and I’m sure you’ll get there
Best of luck and I hope that itch gets scratched, soon!
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Thanks Tracey, do you know this post is one I will always look back at with affection as although it is not directly related a string of events has started that could potentially answer all my questions x
Oh you are not all doom and gloom, Sarah.
I think we all want a change sometimes and that can be very scary. But you will always make the best decision that you can – you just have to trust and believe in yourself. 🙂
Thinking of you and wishing you luck. 🙂
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Thank you Jenna and has you know a lot has changes since this post, I was shocked at first but it all going to be great I am sure x
I constantly have that life itch so I know where you’re coming from. It will all work out. Thanks for sharing in #HappyDaysLinky x
Thanks Kate, it is all starting to make sense I think x