Jack is Going Skiing Arghhh, Letting Go

From the moment the boys were born, like most other Mums, I have felt the overwhelming need to protect them. Worried on their first day at nursery, their first swimming lesson and first day at school. Felt thrilled that we have made them confident enough to take on challenges in life with a can do attitude.

Then Jack was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, the single worst moment of my life. I remember trying to compute the doctor’s words, yes I had taken him to urgent care with those exact suspicions but in the back of my mind I hoped I was wrong. Unfortunately mother’s instinct is always right isn’t it?

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In true Christie form we got on with it the only way we knew how, fought the challenge. And as a result Jack his embraced his condition and has maintained a healthy normal life even though he has to inject 4 to 5 times a day.

But I am not ready for next week, not one little bit. My little boy is going to Austria skiing with school for a week. Now I would have been worried pre diabetes. I 100% know his teachers are wonderful responsible people. But as a parent skiing is a huge thing, all that risk, boys being giddy on snow with skis. But factor in the diabetes and agghhh how will I sleep for the next week.

We are so lucky that his amazing nurse Vicky has given the teachers all the relevant info and training to help them cope with any eventuality. I have been involved in the meetings and feel confident that these wonderful but slightly mad (well lets face it a week with 40 teenagers) people can cope with anything. Any problems they are going to have me on speed dial.

I have to give Jack credit too; he is a great young man, very responsible and takes his health seriously. He is able to listen to his body and know exactly what it needs and react quickly.

So what am I worried about, hey? I should be far more chilled about this. I know I will be constantly worrying about what his sugar level is at any given time. Has he eaten enough carbs for a days skiing, is his monitor working, is he checking his sugar before bedtime, is he carrying snacks.

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Jack we love you so much and trust you; we know you are ready for this. But I am your Mum and part of my job being responsible and worrying about you. So the out of control feeling is going to be so difficult.

But what I am so looking forward to is the feeling of pride I will feel when you return home. Another milestone achieved, and another mountain conquered.

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21 Comments

  1. 31st March 2015 / 10:37 am

    Sarah, you made me cry again!
    I am quite literally terrified for when it is my turn to do this – and it’s 3 years away. My girl is the same as Jack – responsible, knowledgeable, and fun-loving. Nothing will stop her from trying, and she will do her very best. But it will still terrify me (mostly at night, when the levels could drop), and I don’t know how I will cope.
    So thank you for writing about it – because it’s only by watching others go through it, and learning from them, that I will be able to allow her to follow her dreams.
    Good luck for the trip Jack, and phone your Mum as often as you can! Otherwise she will need a lot more wine!

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
      Author
      31st March 2015 / 9:15 pm

      Thank you Helen, yes it is so scary, but as i speak he is excitedly uploading movies to his iPad bless, the nights are my biggest fear hopefully dropping his long acting will cover that, I will breath a sigh of relief when this hurdle is over xx

  2. 31st March 2015 / 9:08 pm

    Aww Sarah what a gorgeous post – it made me feel a bit weepy. No matter how big they get they will always be our babies! You’ve brought up such a wonderful boy there under quite hard circumstances so a bit well done to you too. When he gets back from that trip you should both give yourselves a big pat on the back – after you’ve had the massive cuddle of course! Hope he has a fab time 🙂 Thanks so much for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      31st March 2015 / 9:16 pm

      Thank you Lisa, yes they never stop being our babies do they? he would go mad if he saw this ha ha xx

  3. 31st March 2015 / 11:36 pm

    Awww!! It’s the hardest thing to let them go without the added health complications. He will have a fab time I am sure! I feel for you and when he gets back, as you say, there will be lots to celebrate X

  4. 1st April 2015 / 9:00 am

    Oh gosh, god love you. It’ll be terrifying but amazing knowing he can do this! Not going to let it stop him do anything! He will make you proud, as usual, I’m sure. Big loves.

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      1st April 2015 / 9:21 pm

      Thanks Karen, and yes I am sure he will bless him, but I will have bitten all my nails whilst he does it ha ha x

  5. 1st April 2015 / 2:01 pm

    Lovely Post! You are right, all mothers have that need to protect. I am sure he will have the best time! You are doing a wonderful job 🙂

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      1st April 2015 / 9:27 pm

      Thank you Erin, yes you think the worrying stops when they are born, when you are expecting don’t you? ha ha how naive was I x

  6. 1st April 2015 / 4:09 pm

    Oh goodness, the school ski trip is a worrying experience at the best of times – I’ve been there! But well done to you for letting him go, even more so with a condition that requires extra special care. This could be the making of him and you. I hope he has an amazing time. x

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      1st April 2015 / 9:30 pm

      Thanks so much Suzanne, I vowed the day Jack was diagnosed that it would never hold him back, I have to stand firm and show him exactly that no matter how I feel inside xx

  7. 2nd April 2015 / 1:44 pm

    I can totally imagine how hard it is going to be!! But, he is so clever and amazing for getting on with life! And he has to enjoy himself! You’ll be fine. It will go so quick he’ll be home before you know it! Good luck and can’t wait hear all about it 🙂 Jess x

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      2nd April 2015 / 11:46 pm

      Thanks Jess and yes you are so right, its great to see him growing up, but scary too x

  8. 2nd April 2015 / 2:29 pm

    My son is 4 going on 5 in a few months and I am so excited and scared at the same time of the prospect of him going somewhere by himself. I dont know how to handle it! #sharewithme

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      2nd April 2015 / 11:47 pm

      Melina they grow up so quickly I can’t believe Jack is 14 scary how time has flown x

  9. 3rd April 2015 / 10:25 pm

    Ah Sarah I am dreading when Miss C (10 next month) wants to go away! I am already worried about her going to Secondary School by herself let alone abroad! I am sure Jack will have so much fun and it will be a huge learning and fun experience for him 🙂 x

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      4th April 2015 / 10:02 pm

      Rachel its so hard but I suppose it is important to let them live,grow and become independent x

  10. Steph (midlife mummy)
    5th April 2015 / 6:04 pm

    Oh bless you – I can totally understand what your feeling – even though I’m NOWHERE near that yet! I’m dreading leaving Holly at school! He will have an amazing time though – you just wait and see – big hugs – Steph xxx

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
      Author
      5th April 2015 / 7:16 pm

      Thanks Steph, yes so far he seems to be having a fab time, x

  11. 5th April 2015 / 8:08 pm

    Ahh bless you just means you are an amazing mother to feel that way when your child goes off without you. Lovely post. Thanks for linking up to Share With Me. Happy Easter! #sharewithme

    • SarahJChristie
      SarahJChristie
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      5th April 2015 / 8:16 pm

      Thanks Jenny, that is such a lovely thing to say xx

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