From the moment the boys were born, like most other Mums, I have felt the overwhelming need to protect them. Worried on their first day at nursery, their first swimming lesson and first day at school. Felt thrilled that we have made them confident enough to take on challenges in life with a can do attitude.
Then Jack was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, the single worst moment of my life. I remember trying to compute the doctor’s words, yes I had taken him to urgent care with those exact suspicions but in the back of my mind I hoped I was wrong. Unfortunately mother’s instinct is always right isn’t it?
In true Christie form we got on with it the only way we knew how, fought the challenge. And as a result Jack his embraced his condition and has maintained a healthy normal life even though he has to inject 4 to 5 times a day.
But I am not ready for next week, not one little bit. My little boy is going to Austria skiing with school for a week. Now I would have been worried pre diabetes. I 100% know his teachers are wonderful responsible people. But as a parent skiing is a huge thing, all that risk, boys being giddy on snow with skis. But factor in the diabetes and agghhh how will I sleep for the next week.
We are so lucky that his amazing nurse Vicky has given the teachers all the relevant info and training to help them cope with any eventuality. I have been involved in the meetings and feel confident that these wonderful but slightly mad (well lets face it a week with 40 teenagers) people can cope with anything. Any problems they are going to have me on speed dial.
I have to give Jack credit too; he is a great young man, very responsible and takes his health seriously. He is able to listen to his body and know exactly what it needs and react quickly.
So what am I worried about, hey? I should be far more chilled about this. I know I will be constantly worrying about what his sugar level is at any given time. Has he eaten enough carbs for a days skiing, is his monitor working, is he checking his sugar before bedtime, is he carrying snacks.
Jack we love you so much and trust you; we know you are ready for this. But I am your Mum and part of my job being responsible and worrying about you. So the out of control feeling is going to be so difficult.
But what I am so looking forward to is the feeling of pride I will feel when you return home. Another milestone achieved, and another mountain conquered.