First this week I had an issue with my scales, I shouldn’t weigh myself every day but I am just in the habit of doing so! Then on Monday disaster struck I put on half a stone on over night!!! I mean how could I have? Unless I had unwittingly driven to Mc Donald’s in my sleep and eaten 6 Big Mac meals, 4 Mc,flurries and 7 donuts but I am almost positive I didn’t. Although a Big Mac meal would go down a treat right now.
So I took action, I bought a new set of digital scales now these made me 2 pounds heavier to what I was at slimming world last week, had I put on weight or were my scales slightly out to the slimming world scales. This dilemma has traumatised me all week , I should never have weighed myself as now I was one of 3 possible weights arghhhh.
Well of course I carried on being good, in fact extra good yet I somehow felt heavier. This caused a craving effect where I wanted to eat everything in sight. I don’t have a particularly sweet tooth but I would have eaten my way through a ton of sugar if I could have. It’s almost like I went into survival mode, I felt like a failure in diet despair; so why not just give up? It took me all my strength and willpower to keep going.
I decided to try to make the fake Haribo and fake fudge. The boys loved them and wolfed then down, I ate a few pieces but it felt wrong to eat them! Ridiculous when they are 3 sins per large batch, maybe had I let myself eat more of them I would have gotten over my almost obsessive need to eat sugar.
What have I learnt this week, we’ll for start I am half a pound heavier!!! Grr , but I have bought my new slimming world magazine and am determined to get it right over the next two weeks, one day at a time. My new scales are bang on exact to slimming world’s, however I am going to weigh myself less.
I have decided that yes I need to get it right next week but not to be too hard on myself and just put it down to experience. I can’t go to group next week so will need to wait two weeks until my next weigh in. I have discovered I love Cherry and Cinnamon tea, I have never like tea but I am getting addicted to this, and I can have sin free meringues, which I made tonight and loved. So chin up Sarah and keep going, I know I can do it.And when I look around the slimming world group it is full of such amazingly committed people who have lost stones and stones, they are motivation to carry on.